elsabet's livejournal

just got home from the lantern festival. i think i've come to the conclusion that i just don't like the dark. i only stayed for one of the fire shows and then i came home early. i have work tomorrow so tonight's gonna be an early one...

anyway i totally had time to camwhore a bit and now i'm going to take bong tokes and watch Human Nature.


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ahhhhhh i don't have time for this anymore!!!!!

everything is boring me to the point where i don't even remember what used to interest me in the past.

i did virtually nothing today except watch tv until i got bored enough to clean. which i did. so i guess i did something. my room is pretty spotless and the living room is tidy.

i feel pretty spiritually empty though.

livejournal feels useless.

going to wreck tomorrow probably. who wants to come with?

ah nevermind, it might rain and will not be sunny. who wants to hang out and do something else?

I am eating bean salad that I made with WAY too much garlic (awesome! sorry co-workers!!! love youu!) and nothing to drink because I am dissatisfied by all of the 18 thousand juices in my fridge.

tonight I'm gonna stay up late and move around furniture and tack ethernet cables to the ceiling and then I'm going to watch Merlin and then tomorrow I'm going to go to WRECKBEACH. all day!!

who else is going tomorrow during the day, like around 2 ish?

so if you know me you know that i almost NEVER post quotes in my journal, but I just had to post this one:

*muffin* says:
are you going to the club tonight?
CrazyDave says:
nope, going to stay home and have mad sex with my hand. ummm yea,,, on second thought the club sounds like a more social idea.

hahaha oh crazy dave, you're amazing.

today is my first day biking to work and i'm really nervous that i'll fuck it up so i'm giving myself a good HOUR to get there. hah.

also i made a waffle in the toaster oven but then got so distracted that i didn't eat it. so i'm going to have to eat it while riding my bike which could be funny....

also i can't get over the amazingly hot girls at our community bikes.

OH OH OH and if anyone wants to go to a house party on july 1st you're in luck because i'm having one. and you're invited. it's at my mom's house and it starts at 8 pm and it's hopefully going to be pretty kickin awesome.

ahh so I finally asked for a transfer to another store a couple weeks ago, for a whole buncha reasons, mainly that I am tired of working in Burnaby and buying a two zone bus pass. Anyway, the transfer got approved and stuff, so I now work at Choices in Kits! Apparently it's a lot busier at that one and I get to work with like 4 people at a time in the deli. I'll be working full time, mostly days, in the deli for now. When more kids go back to school in the fall then I get switched to front end which suits me fine yay.

It's kind of a mixed blessing because I'm going to miss all my friends at the park store. But now I can visit, yay, and I never have to deal with crappy crapola deli management and commuting so much every day. At the new store, I can BIKE there and it will be awesome. I'm going to not buy a bus pass next month to force myself to bike more.

Ahhh what else... UM... I sprained my finger pretty bad at work last night and it hurts like a bitch. It's my right index finger so yeah that's pretty inconvenient for like everything. Tonight is my last deli close at the old store and it's going to be pretty miserable with this sprained finger. Boo.

Nothing else is new. OH I may get a new cell phone today. If Fido convinces me to sign up for a new contract. Which seems likely. That is if I can find my fucking debit card that I somehow lost in the house.

ok so my friend Eli is absolutely convinced that omgwtfbbq is netspeak for "ohmygot whatthefuck bitch-be-quiet", and not "ohmygod whatthefuck barbeque" which it so obviously IS.

*eli says:* " it just makes so much more sence that way... i meen ... com on... barbeque? wtf?

OKAY eli is so wrong and makes no sense. it's totally barbeque.

*eli says:* "BBQ"

has anyone else heard of this whole "omgwtfBitchBeQuiet" thing???

i'm goin crayzee

this is the naked house.

anyone who has a problem with that can get dressed.

reasons why i am currently an angst bucket:

-i miss my kitten!!!!
-i am too lazy to smoke pot.
-i feel like i have no outlet for my evil thoughts and emotions and they are manifesting in a Bad Attitude.
-i smell like deli.
-many of my friends are leaving town.
-besides random sexual partners, i am very much alone and lonely and wish i had a partner in crime.
-i feel invisible almost all the time.

never ever delete music off your computer!! even if you think you will never ever listen to it, you probably will someday want to, and you'll hate yourself for deleting it.

on a related note, I WANNA LISTEN TO PUNK ROCK BUT I DON'T HAVE ANY!!

• my lymph nodes are still swollen to the size of golf balls.
  
• i've been having really really odd dreams.
  
• last night i dreamt that my friend Michelle stole my boyfriend so i threw a jar of peaches on the ground and cut my hand really bad and then had a hissy fit and blacked out and then couldn't remember anything.
  
• then instantly following that i dreamed i visited fractaloid and rashleytron with magickhands and photonduality and the place they were staying was this weird desert tent community and they were really mean and ignorey to me and were listening to Mariah Carey and i got all sad and wanted to leave. weird.
  
• arrrg lymph nodes hurtt.
  
• going to BJORK show today!!!!
  
• i want a new job i think. or at least a transfer to the other store.
  
• i feel like this neck pain and shitty sleeping is never going to freakin go away. sigh.
  
• edited to add, oh yeah, i went into work 2 hours early by accident yesterday so i spent 2 hours walking my coworker's dog. it was awesome. i love dogs.
  

I've been unable to sleep because I'm all feverish and sore-throaty. I went to the doctor and found out it's strep throat. No work for me until Monday. I'm bored just thinking about it.

Thankfully my house is full of crazy trippy people who also never sleep. I woke up this morning at 6:30 and cried a little bit and drank some neo citran. I still can't sleep. My room is too messy. I miss sick days when I was a kid. I'm really hungry. I hate eating because it's so complicated and so much work and you have to do it all the time. Argh I'm lazy.

I think I'm going to watch season 1 of arrested development.

so yeah i went and got myself good and sick. i think it's strep throat or something. i'm going to the doctor's at 3 pm. i think i'm the most annoying sick person ever, seriously. i just took some oil of oregano and promptly puked it back up. i thought i was trying to puke up my uvula. yuck.

i'm going to go watch movies and continue whining.

nyargh.

i wish i had a booty call but i'm starting to think i have a reputation for being a psycho... you know, one of those girls who seems cool but then you get too close and they're total basket cases who break your heart and steal all your cds.

not that i've ever stolen cds.

well, i did stay in a relationship with someone for a week longer than i should have, for the sole purpose of archiving his music collection on my computer.

but i felt really bad about it.

maybe i'm not a psycho. but then why can't i have an uncomplicated sexual relationship with someone?

i've noticed when i am feeling kinda down i tent to bump into things a lot more and be more in my head about life. like i am fucking COVERED in scrapes and bruises from work. the last few days i have just bumped into everything.

there's not even much to be feeling down about but i guess when you're like me you just have to accept that it will happen.

my hours are pretty lame, i think i am going to officially try to transfer stores. like if i work at 16th then i wont have to spend $100 on a bus pass and they're a big enough store so they will have hours for me.

other than that i am working a super lame 4 hour shift. BUT, 4 hours = $40 = alluvium ticket, so when i think about it in terms of that, it wont be so bad.

failers vs. flailers?

i am seeing Blades of Glory tonight at metrotown at like 9:30 ish, meeting at 8:15 to smoke a joint and grab some food. people should come with!!! all are welcome.

text me. i'm at work until 8 but you can call my cell any time after that to let me know when and where you want to meet.